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Wednesday, February 15, 2006

\\*flood after flood never ending....*//

As if I'm free to update my blog today.
Never!
That's why i took so long to finally update this blog. Heck I don't even update my personal diary chucked in between other assessment bks in the bkcase.

Dear blog, I'm so sorry to have neglected u for a while already.
You see, I've been very busy lately. Tests came in droves right after Chinese New Year ended. At least they kept me up to date with the lessons so far and i consider studying for these tests as revision for O levels in...10 months time? n u can imagine how fast 2 months has been.
Talking abt O levels, O level results were finally released last Friday! I got an A2!! A distinction!! n another distinction for the oral component. I'm proud of myself, cos today i juz realised that I'm comparable to the others in Higher Malay Class. It's ok that I didn't get an A1. The only problem I have wif not getting an A1 is that I would still have to work towards an A1 for all 6 components in L1R5. Oh n that certain cikgus have alwaes been expecting me to get an A1. Other than that, I'm fine.

Oh gosh the English results of last yr's cohort were scary. Few people received distinctions, n sum ppl expected to get a distinction didn't. N the sciences, Physics n Chem esp, as per usual, very few distinctions. Never realised those two papers were really that hard to score. Overall, the results of last yr's cohort fell frm the previous yr. Imagine what the burden would be like on our yr to do well n pick up results. Teachers r like forcing subjects n words of advice that are to be adhered to down our throats.

The cheers. the screams. the cries. of joy and of disappointment. Floods of emotions when that day comes. How will I ever be able to face that day...in one year's time, when the all-impt O levels are over but not ur future, in fact it's only the beginning. Right here, Right now.
n Now the time to make those decisions...affect prob the rest of ur life in ur career blah blah. N i'm still stuck at the question between JC or Poly. While sum others r planning their university life already. Well, at least I know what I want to do is definitely not in Sciences. Contemplating career in Business or Communications. That will get me started. Choices r better to be narrowed down rather than left wide open, makes one more stressed. Oh please can I combine my Physics n Bio???? It just doesn't seem right. Like I'm taking the easy way out. Or can I just drop Bio? Oh wait, potential distinction subject. Bleh.

11.51 am. With floods of homework, cleared, Thank God! N floods of tests, revision work, choices, activities, events, expectations, etc. still coming in to fill every inch of my brain.
I give up NYAA. I give up doing Lit. No, no not yet. There is hope. It's whether I can reach that aim of distinction still ever so high. Ok keep going. Oh but give up JC education. No? Then, give up doing all the list of activities I'm supposed to follow. No!!!!!!! Then, I give up continuing to write this entry already. It's gonna be midnite!
But.........Ahh there's a flood of mosquitos right about everywhere in the bathroom. N it's getting warm in the room!

I need to cool down, gosh, i'm gonna drown soon.

Slipped Away|11:15 PM|

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