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Sunday, April 23, 2006

\\*taking one step at a time...*//

Step by step...i live everyday 'to the fullest'. But i dun think this is ever the case. The way i feel it, seems like other people has done a lot more wif their time...dunno how they do it. Am i wasting my time day to day, trying to study but nothing effective. This is the time for last minute studying.

This year, seemingly i have no time to hang out wif my friends as much. Other people have time for shopping, watching movies n the money to do so. For me, heck I even spent the entire March holidays doing my homework apparently...wif no money to go watch a movie or going out. Neither do i have the time.

However, I'm glad that at least I've been involved in church...today is finally the day of the musical. I defeinitely had a fun time during rehearsals hanging out wif the entire cast, letting myself go n learning to sing (i'm not good at it). At least i dun have to study all the time.

I'm really beginnning to freak out that i actually have no life. Always 'studying'. Ahem, except the studying is no use.

And yesterday was probably the sec 4s final Guides meeting. A lot of events occuring yesterday. Enrolment, Elections (handing over our leadership positions to the sec 3s) n trying to work for our Gold. I am nearly there. I did axemanship yesterday, but no time to do simple repairs, repairing the plug. Just show one of the Guiders the fixed plug n the handbk, I will get my Gold!! Yay!! Audrey n Erin got their Gold yesterday. Congrats to them. They got their bumping of course.

One side of me feels i've had sumwhat enough of going for Guides meeting every Saturday n even weekdays cos it's really taking a large amt of time. But there is a greater sense of loss once I don't hang out wif the Guides anymore. At least I do have time to hang out with the Guides during outings, or just out for lunch (Duh, i never have time to go shopping anymore). But they are the most fun of all the outings I've had with friends. There's just more bonding, laughter n family-kind-of-feeling to it than ever. That's the thing I love about Guides. I'll miss everyone. I'm so touched when the rest of the Guides said they'll miss us a lot. But none of us managed to cry yesterday. Not yet. Wait till farewell party.

For now, the Guides can still call me their ACL haha. Till we hand over the leadership positions to the nxt batch of leaders. We still have to collect T-shirt money!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's causing us a lot of problems.

I dunno whether I have done a gd job as a leader. I don't even noe whether i deserved the position last yr. I juz took it in my stride...do the best possible job. I'm not perfect n i'm not great either. I even think the other leaders are better leaders than I am. But I'm happy to serve, and I guess that's all that matters. Thanks for the support from the other Guides, YAs and especially the trust of the Guiders. Hopefully the things I've done for the company are appreciated, I'm happy.

All i know is that faith keeps me alive. Faith in God, faith in myself, faith in my loved ones n friends. It's the thing that keeps me going in my life, wanting to achieve certain things cos i believe i can do it. Life is more fulfilling when I believe God has purpose for my life, so whatever I do, even if I lose out in a lot of things, there's always something to gain to carry out my mission in life, well whatever that is.

Woohoo I can't wait till Confirmation. Juz hopefully I can do my best in MYE beforehand.

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