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Sunday, July 30, 2006

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Finally. I'm blogging again. I think it's not because I love blogging. It's not because I miss blogging. I just realised that I need a diary to write in. I have my old diary in my bkcase. But I have left it untouched since end of last year. There's too many things that have gone on since about...2 months ago. and I need to write them down before they vanish into the deeper crevaces of my memory.

I've been confirmed. Listed my name down to become a YF (Youth Facilitator) but no news so far. Besides that just completed our first Conf. 4 Praise & Worship. It's disappointing. The attendance. We messed up a lot with the songs and the music. I guess once we're confirmed, the truth is most people will leave the church or is no more interested in fellowship with their Con. 4 class. I'm one of the few with my great gang of friends who are still together and meet one another as often as we can. That's what I love about the church, being able to meet them and sharing a common devotion to God as one of them. I love hanging out with them.

Besides that, there was the Mawai trip early June. I know it's overdue, but I still miss the fun times we had in Mawai. Going on a hike to Gunung Tunjuk Laut, stargazing, n hanging out with the other Guides in the midst of nature. What I love most would be my patrol Titans. It's fun hanging out with the guides from Bouganvillea n scouts frm Queenstown and New Town. I miss them so much. Our team was the most 'bonded' and united compared to the rest I feel. All of us are part of the team! N lots of laughter ensued when we're together. Without them, the camp would not be much fun. After that, I only met them once more (referring to the scouts in the grp) in our outing to Orchard. I missed the Sentosa outing (cos my mom didnt allow). Hopefully we'll have another reunion sumtime soon.

But that's got to wait till after O levels. Honestly, I don't know the number of days to our O Levels and to our Prelims especially. I'm still in a daze. I still feel that I'm back few months ago hanging out with my friends and enjoying life. Hello! Prelims is in a few weeks time already and I'm still far from getting my revision done and getting that score. It's no hope already to get into TJC through DSA. Not shortlisted after the interview. So now I'm still wondering how am I going to get that 7 pts. Even with bonus points I don't feel secure at all.
Seriously, I got to get myself together and start taking things seriously. I'm truly deceived that I'll be fine by the time I get to Prelims. Yet Prelims is the one I'm freaking out for, not O levels! It's my chance to get into the TJC I want. Yet my mindset is still thinking: the worst will only be me going to CJC for the next two yrs, which I really don't mind at all.
I would love to only have to think about what I am going to do after O levels. That short yet busy holiday that I would fill to the brim. A lot of things to do, so little time!
So that's what I'm supposed to be panicking about now. Time to get serious. But it's not yet time for me to get serious about it.
*In fact, I'm thinking abt going to play soccer later with the guys at East Coast Park. After studying supposedly*

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