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Saturday, August 12, 2006

\\*where i am today.*//

I'm definitely living in Singapore for many more years, who knows maybe the rest of my life.
I have a new house at Lagoon View! My room is ready for me to live in! It's orange! I love it! except it's bare with only a bed and a wardrobe, but I can move in this Thursday!

Sure, I can stand it living in Singapore for the rest of my life actually. It's much better than life back in Jakarta. It's more comfortable, I have all my friends here already, what else do I want? I lived here more than I did in Jakarta or the US. Coming to 8 yrs. N I lived in Jakarta for onli, 5 years? Big difference.

When I celebrated National Day last Tuesday at school, I realised that I feel I belong to Singapore. When I joined the Guides that day, I was impressed by their marching. Whoa. Could beat our SYF marching 2 yrs ago. I felt like marching again, for NDP or any event. Lots of training under the sun but it's all worth it when u go out to the field. The last time I marched for anything like that was 2 yrs ago in the NDP ceremony in our sch. Long time ago.

Then when we led, well actually juz sang national day songs in front of everyone else, most of us were enjoying ourselves. I enjoyed singing those songs, n when I think at home, that's the problem. I still think back of Indonesia, but then Singapore comes to mind.
"This is home, truly, as my senses tell me..."
I especially love that song 'Home'. I truly am more connected to Singapore. My friends, most of my life, where I'm growing up, is all here. Even though I'm still Indonesian (no plans at all to become S'porean), still thinking of those times back in Jakarta, at the end of the day my life is where I am today.

"My home, wherever I may be....

I believe, you will always be a part of me"

Slipped Away|5:59 PM|

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Thursday, August 03, 2006

\\*the time when we got a scolding*//

I admit that I felt really bad yesterday.
It's not only a class problem, it's a 'me' problem as well.
My class gets many scoldings from Ms Chai, and yesterday was another one of those. Yet, it was never to the extent of us having to stand for one whole period while she stares and mutters words of anger and annoyance at us.
She picks on prefects, leaders and a few certain people to get her point across.
It was blunt. It was somewhat blown out of proportions. From the topic of table arrangement and a piece of plastic that landed on a paper recycling bag.

But then, it made me realise that my class, and I, have not actually reflected on her words enough and put them into action. Our characters have become complacent. Stress and pressure are just excuses.
We take things for granted. We do not respect our elders and the environment around us enough. We are not gracious people. We are not independent. We are dependent on our teachers!
We do not step up to the play. We lay back and sit on the table while all around us there's a lot to be done. I think even leaders sometimes do not have enough initiative. We are just like the rest.

I have the thought and idea to do the right thing. But often, I do not put them into action. I always regret, but I'm still doing the same. I don't know what's so hard with doing the right thing, but sometimes, it is.
I knew we had to separate the tables. But the rest of us thought, "no need". So I thought so too and the next moment, Ms Chai stormed in and threw about her intense emotions. I told myself so.

Time is precious. We lost the time to do our test. But it wasn't wasted yesterday. I think we needed that reminder. Hopefully the lesson will be with us for the rest of our lives. Any scolding like this is more meaningful than any lesson on Maths or Science.

Slipped Away|1:09 PM|

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